so
i have gone back and taken a look at my patterns of depression as evidenced by frequency of bitter posts on LJ/Tumblr/whatever and crying jags, and I have decided that alcohol is a pretty common factor. I will go out and have a beer or two with dinner and then spend the next three days in a miserable hole of hating everything, drinking more to fix it, getting more miserable, until it rides to a head and i turn into a recluse, whereupon i stop drinking because i never think to drink alone, and eventually it sorts out. so i’m giving up alcohol entirely and will watch myself over the next couple months to see if my mood swing patterns change. If I still have the same hideous lows, I will seek therapy and possibly better living through chemistry. Think about it y’all… every time I have one a them nervous breakdowns (think easter weekend where i lost my shit and ended up practically choking in the shower, think london, etc) it always follows consumption of alcohol.
planz
i have them
I support this.
